So, you may, or may not, have heard that the Wonderful Husband is coming home on Saturday for about 12 days. And I'm excited, but I'm also nervous. I just wonder what we'll be like now. We've both changed and probably for the better. I'm kind of getting used to being alone and making sure that everything is done the way I want. I'm not so reliant on him for emotional support and I'm definately not as moody as I used to be (which I don't think has much to do with him being gone and more to do with the fact that I haven't been on the Pill for over a year). And he's learned that he can accomplish something huge and he's had to be a whole lot cleaner than he used to be.
So, I wonder, "Will we both be so different that we won't know how to act around each other?" Is the whole thing with him being home going to be awkward? Or, even worse, are we going to fall back into our old patterns of him watching sports and me getting mad about stupid stuff?
And then there is the other thing that I'm concerned about. Again, I've gotten used to him being gone, but, after 12 days, will I be used to him being here? And when he leaves again, will I become a puddle person? You know, will I melt into a puddle of tears and not be able to pull myself out again? Will I have to start finding happiness by myself all over again?
The husband goes back on the 24th. I guess I'll let you know by the 25th...if I can pull myself out of the puddle.